enlightenment

last night i went to bed wondering and woke up this morning knowing. i have obtained a new outlook. well, one that im going to try and uphold. its not easy to makeover your entire life.

i have spent too much of my life living for others. doing, saying, waiting, thinking, feeling. ive suffered because of it and im taking it back. i will not give up my love or my ability to do so, but i will put myself first. i was always hurt when someone put something before me, it made me feel less significant... almost unimportant. my dream was to be someones reason, their purpose. i see now, that that is something that is just not a possiblity, SO.. back to my main thought.

it is time to live my life for ME. i will find my own reason, my own purpose and regain my own self-esteem.